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Name: Mandi
Country: United States
Birthday: 5/11/1988
Gender: Female
Interests: i have many interests, i love music! if i had to choose to be blind or deaf, i would chose blind! i love being in good company, my friends are my support! i love god with everything i have in me! he is my rock! i love to cheer, and playing soccer even though I am horrible:)
Expertise: i am not really an expert at anything. maybe cheerleading, i cheered for 4 years competitively. i got pretty good, won nationals in destin with my all-star squad, one of the highlights in my life!!
Occupation: Student
Industry: Education/Research
Message: message me
Member Since:
1/2/2006
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| It's been a few months from the last time I posted...I used to post on here all the time and then I actually forgot about my account for a while! Cierra got me back on track though... :) These past few months have been such a change!! for so long I truly felt like I was outside of my body just watching my life pass me by and not actually living. I realized last night that I have the most amazing friends! Really I've known it all along and I keep saying it over and over again, but it's so true! Plus everytime I think or say it I smile...so it's worth saying it from time to time! By the way...Jeramy, you are honestly probably one of the strongest people I know!! This is so cliche...but I got mad because I care for you so much and as Jamie and Aaron said, you are better than that!! You are becoming a lot like Logan Todd... which is honestly really hard to do!! Any woman would be blessed to have you... just hang in there, because she'll come and knock your socks off!! :) I move back into the dorm tomorrow morning and I am going to miss all of you much!! I would love to honestly move to Carson-Newman or to UT...but God keeps telling me to hang in there and that Maryville is where He wants me to be!! I am listening and obeying. I'd be lying if I said it wasn't hard though. But... I am headin out to Ben's for the hot tub...woot!! I love you all so much!! | | |
| I just wanted to say that it's okay... that I do still love you... and that I will always love you!!
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| This is from the book "datable" by justin lookadoo... listen and learn my friends!!
So guys, help! We are responsible here. Think about what you're saying. You really know that it won't last, so don't pretend. what you are doing is emotional abuse. Don't manipulate a girl by purposely saying things thats she will misunderstand. Guys, you know that a girl who is crushing on you is going to hang on every word you say. She is going to build a fantasy romance, leaving her vulnerable and willing to do whatever she can to make it work with you. So you take the pureness inside of her, expose it, twist it, and force yourself between her imagination and her dreams. Then you rip it out, use it, destroy it, and leave her to pick up the shattered pieces. All the while, you knew you didn't believe all the stuff you said. You just said it.
STOP! Don't tell her you love her. Don't tell her you want to be with her forever. It's not cool, even if that's what you think right now. Because you're abusing her emotionally if you do. As men, we have been given a responsibility. Take it and be a man.
The guy is in charge of the relationship. You can't let it get blown out of proportion into this "forever-and-ever" thing. Be careful with her heart. Protect it like a mighty warrior. Don't let anyone damage it, not even you. You are the protector.
Some guys who are reading this are saying, "That's not me! I think it's gonna last because I love her. The way I feel is amazing. She is the one." Okay, I'll give you that. You do feel like it will last forever, so let's talk about that feeling. You can't eat, you can't sleep, you get butterflies in her presence, your palms sweat. You feel like a total dork and it feels great. Newsflash for you: This isn't love. It's somebody besides your mom thinking you're cool. And it's an amazing feeling. Don't get me wrong, I dig it just as much as you do. But don't confuse the feeling with love. Love doesn't feel all mushy. Love isn't sweaty palms and sleepless nights. Love is a decision you make to care for someone no matter how you feel. If they are disfigured in an accident or throwing up for hours on end, you will still love them.
This is way important to understand because I want you to cherish your relationship for what it is-- an amazing sign that you are accepted. Your relationship means you are special. You know that because someone who doesn't have to care about you does. Let's not bash that. It's part of what gives you confidence and makes life exciting. But it isn't love. Have fun knowing you are lovable. Enjoy the acceptance of a non-family member, but remember, it's not love yet.
it's just a great feeling that you can enjoy for now.
The question becomes: Will it ever last? Yes! Don't worry. You will find someone that God has designed for you. You will find that soul connection you desire. Right now we're just talking about your teen dating years. The rules totally change lateron in life when marriage stuff comes into play. But until then, remember that it will not last.
I hope you can see that by believing the truth "It will not last" you are not being exiled to a wasteland of the unDatable. Actually, it frees you to experience unimaginable excitement and control and sets you on track to being intensely Datable.
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| I can't believe I let it get that far!! I can't believe I let God become second for so long...and as a consequence it was taken from me! I can't believe it took me so long to realize that that's another reason I am alone! I want to fix it...I want to make God first more than anything...I want Him to be my first love! I want to make it right not because I want it back...but because I love God with everything I have in me...and I have faith enough that after my tests are over...I can win him back. I have faith...is that stupid... should I just let go? Oh, letting go is like stabbing a hole in my heart over and over again until all you see is one big hole! letting go and giving up means giving up on my hopes and dreams and future. I don't know if I am strong enough to not love him... how do you just give up on something you have so much faith in! Don't ask how I have so much faith... there is nothing giving me a reason except God...At least I think its God...but what if its just me...how do you differenciate between the two? How do you just give up on love? | | |
| "When You Come Back Down"
You got to leave me now, you got to go alone
You got to chase a dream, one that's all your own
Before it slips away
When you're flyin' high, take my heart along
I'll be the harmony to every lonely song
That you learn to play
When you're soarin' through the air
I'll be your solid ground
Take every chance you dare
I'll still be there
When you come back down
When you come back down
I'll keep lookin' up, awaitin' your return
My greatest fear will be that you will crash and burn
And I won't feel your fire
I'll be the other hand that always holds the line
Connectin' in between your sweet heart and mine
I'm strung out on that wire
And I'll be on the other end, To hear you when you call
Angel, you were born to fly, If you get too high
I'll catch you when you fall
I'll catch you when you fall
Your memory's the sunshine every new day brings
I know the sky is calling
Angel, let me help you with your wings
When you're soarin' through the air
I'll be your solid ground
Take every chance you dare
I'll still be there
When you come back down
Take every chance you dare,
I'll still be there
When you come back down
When you come back down | | |
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